Orlando, Florida

Dear blog,

I love you and I miss you. We don't hang out often enough.

Unfortunately, I don't have time to change that because in a very, very short time I will be leaving my home and going on a flight to ORLANDO FLORIDA to visit The Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal and of course Disney freakin World.

My adrenaline is pumpin and I've got some last minute running around to do before we go.

But I just wanted to drop a little line, explaining my extended absence.

I vow to post more often upon my return, but don't hold me to it ;)

This is going to be a mega fun trip.

Nine hours of travelling, here I come!

PEACE SUCKAS!!

This may possibly be the greatest thing to ever exist.

DENYSE CAN I JUST LIKE, EXPRESS MY UNDYING LOVE FOR YOU!?

ahahahha this is the BEST.

Oh yeah, and this too hahahah even though they're old, I still smile every time I see them.

You cooky crazy latino awesome chick you!

Keep makin' your AWESOME photoshop thaaannnggss xD

Things that need to happen in my life ASAP

Fort making.

Epic dance party.

Karaoke night.

90's themed party.

The A Team project.

Craft night.

Baking party.

Disney marathon.

Let's make these happen soon, mmkay?

Wow!

It has been a very, very long time since I posted on here! Why do I keep doing this? Can't say as I actually know the answer to that question...

Well, I'm just going to be cryptic and vague and not make a whole lot of sense.

Okay, ready? GO!

There are so many things I need to declutter, literally, figuratively, metaphorically, any other kind of "-ally" you can think of. I feel like I'm running out of time. I think you're too hipster for us to get along. Or rather, I'm not hipster enough, perhaps. I can't find what I'm looking for. But is this even what I want? If you weren't so damn hilarious and ridiculous I might have been upset. I was upset. But now, instead, I'll just laugh. I want something that I want. What are the chances? I'm thinking I may be over thinking. Do not think, become. There is literally nothing else I want more in this world than exactly that, but I know it's damn near impossible. None of it's real, but somewhere in the back of my mind I have to believe that it is. And I'll just keep hoping that it is, on the off chance that it is and if it'll help my chances, I'll keep the flame burning. And maybe, just maybe, it'll happen. I'm sick of hearing all these stories you tell me, as if things are so damn difficult. But I'm not that girl. That kind of thing just doesn't happen for me and I certainly don't know how to make it happen. I don't know what I'm doing. I want to spend more time with you. But how do I go about this? What would I even say? I can't deny I'm jealous of you. It's obvious. But do I want this for the wrong reasons? There is this spot I can't seem to touch, can't seem to place, can't seem to figure out. It has nothing to do with anything, but it's there. It's hard to believe any of this is even happening. It's all such a blur. If my brain could comprehend it all, maybe I wouldn't be so stressed out about it. It all feels right, like its falling into place, falling straight into our laps. But at the same time, how can we be sure when it could just as easily blow up in our faces? I want to go. But I don't want to go alone. What if it's the same as last time? What if it's worse? Stop. Just stop. Again, I'm over thinking, over analyzing. For now I think I just have to hold my head up high, keep my fingers crossed and hope to all things holy that everything works out for the best.

BIG BLOCK'O'TEXT IS A BIG BLOCK OF TEXT.

the end.

I only shoot up with your perfume.

I'm sitting here, wearing my most glamorous, old hollywood style night dress and robe, just for fun.

What could be better than a wonderful hot bath after a long week?

Nothing, I'll say.

And it has indeed been a long week. Week and a half more like, and it's certainly not over. I must admit, I'm a busy bee these days. All that time with nothing to do and suddenly I'm overwhelmed. Le sigh. Ah, such is life. Be careful what you wish for, isn't that what they say?

Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I'm not unhappy. In all honesty, I'm quite pleased with the way things are going. Just drained is all. And boy would I ever like to rest every now and then. But things will settle down soon enough, if only to be replaced by something else equally as time and energy consuming.

There are so many things I want to say. I just want to open my mouth and blurt things out but I know what a horrible idea that is. I need my best friend. But unfortunately, none of the people that I would say qualify in that regard are currently at my disposal. But I feel like my brain is so full of gunk, I just need some way to release it all. Though, at the same time, I feel like it won't fix anything even if I do. I'm still going to obsess over every little thing. My mind plays tricks on me and my imagination carries me away sometimes. Wishful thinking? More than likely so, but I can't stop drifting off into LaLa Land and dreaming about it all anyways.

I realize I'm being rather cryptic so I'll leave you with this:

"How so very apropos:

A goodbye just as soon as I said 'Hello.'

Well alright, I'll see you later."

First Day: New Job

Y'know that feeling when your brain is so full its almost as though its squeezing out your ears? (-_-;)

Well it was my first day at the new job today and my brain is on a bit of an information overload. But as first days go, it was a pretty good one. I mean, it most definitely could have been worse. At my old job, on the first day, I had a bunch of crabby ol' customers telling me I wasn't doing a good job, being snarky and short with me and rolling their eyes. And on the second day, I spilled an entire bowl of cone batter all over the counter and onto the floor. So let's just say, today was a cake walk by comparison. Of course, first days always suck. Being the New Girl is never a good feeling. Unsure, confused, embarrassed, awkward, incompetent, uncomfortable... these are just some of the words I think of. Because no matter what, you don't know what you're doing. It's the first day, you don't have a sense of how things work, who people are, what and how much you can say and all that other junk that you grow accustom to once you've become comfortable with a situation. The thing about today was, the people weren't trying to be friendly or accommodating or helpful. They just were. They seem like genuinely nice people. Easy going, approachable and easy to talk to. At least I think they'll be easy to talk to... once I, y'know, talk... to them... I was pretty quiet today. Not a lot of opportunity for chit chat when I don't have a clue what I'm doing. But I'm back again tomorrow morning for another eight hour shift and a few more shifts next week. I even get my first paycheck at the end of the month because I just caught the end of the pay period. I suppose I'll keep you posted on how things go. Right now all I know for sure is that I need to wear a warmer top tomorrow because it is freezing in that mall! And now, even though it's not even 8:30pm, I'm going to go brush my teeth and get ready for bed because my brain feels like mush and I have to do it all again tomorrow. Thanks for reading my ramblings. I love you all, even if you're only reading this out of morbid curiosity or as some kind of joke, at least my words aren't for nothing. Good night.

ps:

I didn't have a chance to make an Alphabetically Me video today and I do feel bad for that, but I am about to pass out soooooooooo.... I wouldn't make the best video material right about now...

It's amazing what a little redecorating can do...

I have spent a good portion of this evening and last doing some rearranging in my bedroom. I find this very satisfying. And doing so has seemingly broken me out of that horrible funk I spoke of. It's amazing what a little organization and moving a couple posters around can do for a gal. I've got a whole list of other little things to fix, add, and change but for now I'm quite satisfied. But of course, because my brain was on an interior decorating buzz, I had to look up bedrooms on google. These are some of my findings. Some I think are simply beautiful and I wish I had right now, some I wish I could've had as a child and some I just think are cool, however impractical they may or may not be. You get to figure out which ones are which ;)