some questions and some answers

o1. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?

I... don't know.

o2. what on your body is hurting or bothering you?

My soul.

o3. what was your last thought before going to bed last night?

Jesus Christ I hope there aren't any more spiders in here.

o4. what are you listening to?

Meghan Tonjes.

o5. what’s something you’re not looking forward to?

dinner with a large grouping of my family members tonight...

o6. where do you think your best friend is right now?

that implies that I have one, singular best friend.

o7. have you kissed anybody in the last five days?

nope.

o8. sex on the first date?

nope.

o9. kiss on the first date?

maybe.

1o. is there one person you want to be with right now?

my mum.

11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life?

that's a very deep question.

12. is there something you would like to say to someone?

fuck off.

13. what are three things you did today?

tumblr, tumblr, tumblr.

14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?

have them over. i don't like leaving my bedroom.

15. what is your favorite kind of gum?

I can't eat gum, it gets stuck to my braces.

16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?

that implies I have exboyfriends/girlfriends

17. what is on your wrists right now?

nothing.

18. ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?

always.

19. does anyone have strong feelings for you?

not that I'm aware of.

2o. are you slowly drifting away from someone?

Yes, but steadily growing closer with others so it balances out.

21. have you ever wasted your time on someone?

in what way?

22. can you do the alphabet in sign language?

i wish, that'd be cool.

23. how have you felt today?

none too well.

24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?

clothing. and food.

25. what is wrong with you right now?

oh so many things...

26. is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?

off the top of my head, no.

27. would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?

mmmm starbucks...

28. why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?

again, this implies having an 'ex'

29. how late did you stay up last night and why?

around 3am because i was partying hard at the supernatural convention with my nerd friends. whadduuuppp.

3o. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

like, an hour ago via text message?

31. what were you doing an hour ago?

...texting my best friend apparently hahahaha

32. what are you looking forward to in the next month?

birthday!!

33. are you wearing jeans right now?

do jean shorts count?

34. are you a patient person?

usually...

35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?

i wouldn't know.

36. favorite color?

pink!

37. did you have a dream last night?

yep but fuck if i can remember it...

38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

jean shorts with bright yellow tights. yup.

39. if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?

You.

4o. do you love anyone who is not related to you?

i love all my friends like burning.

41. if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

yes please.

42. do you like meeting new people?

not usually, i'm pretty freaking awkward at first.

43. are you afraid of falling in love?

fucking terrified.

44. ever liked someone older than you?

every time.

45. has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

no i don't think so...

46. have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

yep.

And that my friends is the end!

Whoa

So I'm really bad at posting here.

Words can't describe the wide range of emotions and experiences I have had since my last post. I've been procrastinating a lot of things, including this.

So let me just sum it up and send you to this video (my Thoughts From Places video from VidCon, which, y'know, John Green commented on, no big deal.) and make some feeble promise about posting here more often and blah blah blah.

And now it is time for bed.

So long, farewell, etc etc.

<3

Current Harry Potter Book: Chamber of Secrets

Page Number: I don't currently recall where I put my book so I don't know.

omgomgomgomgomgomg

VidCon is here.

I don't know if I've talked about this on here before but I feel like I've talked about it everywhere and anywhere to everyone and anyone who will listen.

Basically, VidCon is like a convention for YouTube. Panels, Q&A, concerts, etc. Two days of it.

Super nerdy, but gonna be totally awesome.

I have been so nervous about this for so long that I'm beginning to feel numb.

Obviously, I'm also excited about it and it's going to be so much freaking fun, but I'm just an awkward gal and meeting new people is kinda terrifying for me.

Six months has gone by so friggin fast. I remember when I first bought my ticket for VidCon with the intention of possibly backing out due to anxiety. I told my friend who bought our tickets not to take it personally, just in case.

And then the next thing I knew I was booking flights and setting up all these things and now here we are and I'm leaving today!

I'm praying I've packed everything. Good lord.

Well, I suppose I'd better get myself going here. Don't want to be late and miss our flight. (Or maybe I kinda do a little bit...)

Hope everyone is well and I will fill you all in when I get back, to the best of my ability.

Love ya!

BYEEEEE.

Current Harry Potter Book: Chamber of Secrets

Page Number: 33

remember that one time

when I said I was going to reread the entire Harry Potter series before the last film came out and I was going to document what book/page I was on as I went?

Well, that totally didn't happen because I put the book down for like six months.

But I finished Philospher's Stone yesterday and am now reading Chamber of Secrets, so I'm going to start this up again.

I no longer have the deadline of "before the final film" but I still really want to reread the series.

So!

Current Harry Potter Book: Chamber of Secrets

Page Number: 24

I woke up this morning and realized...

I am absolutely devastated.

That is all.

HP7part2

I am feeling such an overwhelming array of emotions right now.

Namely, confusion.

I feel as though it hasn't quite sunk in just yet.

It's difficult for me to get a handle on what just happened.

It's over. That's it, that's the end. No more.

I don't think I can deal with that.

Is it pathetic to be this emotionally invested?

Pathetic or passionate?

Let's go with the latter.

Although I don't claim to be some sort of Potter genius, there are plenty more knowledgable than I and plenty more dedicated too, but I still care. And I care a lot.

I grew up with this franchise. I remember waiting for my Hogwarts letter, the anticipation before I turned 11 and the great crash of disappointment when it never came.

I don't think anything has, can or ever will compare to the impact Harry Potter has had on my life. On all of our lives.

I wish my brain were clear so I could accurately explain my thoughts, but at 3:30 in the morning... that's pretty much hopeless.

There's so much I want to say, but I find myself speechless.

At the start of the movie, Claire and I stuck our wands in the air and yelled "I solemnly swear I'm up to no good." a beautiful moment to be sure (not to mention hilarious)

The plan was at the end to hold our wands high and proclaim "Mischief managed!" but I found myself so emotional, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I forgot, really. I was too busy crying and sobbing to even notice.

I think I'm more upset at the idea of it being over than I am with most of the actual events in the film. Or book, whichever.

In my mind, I like to pretend most of those characters didn't die and that a lot of the seventh book never happened (not a big fan of the last book for multiple reasons which may or may not change upon rereading in the future but currently... not so much)

Okay, whoa. I'm sorry blog. I have to go to bed. I've been attempting to write this for a good half hour and I simply cannot do it anymore. I need to sleep.

I just wanna have a dance party